So Im home. I've been home for a week as of today. I'm not sure what to say about it except that its been weird. Weird that it wasnt as hard as I was expecting. I was expecting to be super frustrated with people, with affluence, with the weather. And only the weather part is true... so far any way.
For the most part I've really enjoyed my week. Except for being freezing in this "nice" New England weather, I have loved spending time with my wonderful boyfriend Logan, getting to see family on Mother's Day, getting to know our new puppy, and watching my sister play lacrosse and enjoying some great conversations with friends.
So, maybe this is just the honeymoon phase...in a way I kind of hope so. I dont want my past four months to be a waste. In debrief we talked about the different responses we could have coming home about our semester. One of them was compartmentalization, putting my past four months into a box and opening it just like I would past vacations. Or I could alienate myself from everyone, writing everyone off as never understanding (which in all honesty you probably wont), and becoming frustrated and bitter when no one wants to keep talking about my time in Uganda. The third, and best response is integration. This is what I want and I'm striving for. I want to take all of my lessons about living faithfully and living simply and integrate into my life here. I want to change, not like 180 degrees, but even if I just change a little, in the future I will still be far from the course I was on before I even left.
So for now, my adventure is continuing in the sense that I have no idea what my next week, let alone my summer is going to be like. For now, I'm living day by day. Hopefully I'll get a job, hopefully I'll have something to do, but hopefully I'll be content with just being.
Prayers for this summer would be greatly appreciated.
And, I cant not mention how much I miss Uganda and my Ugandan family and I really cant wait to go back!
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